Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; His love endures forever. Psalm 118:1
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Romans 12:12
There are no adequate words to describe how I feel tonight when compared to how awful I felt last night. Lighthearted. Playful. Joyful. Happy. Rejuvenated. Content. Peaceful. Loved.
After the misery of last evening, I was sure I'd be in a funk. I have taken a step back from Facebook (other than to share this blog) for a while. I prayed for hours last night. I wept to Mathew as I told him what happened. I cut out those that were weighing me down (and let it be known, that I'm sure I weighed them down, too. It's never just one person.) I took a step back and looked at myself.
Am I living in the moment? Something I'd always sought to do. Am I being a good reflection of Christ's love? Something I can never do enough of. Am I being the sane wife & mother my husband & daughter deserve? After last night's ending, I can yes. I am no longer stuck in the muck of problems that are not my own.
Today was such a vastly different day. I had energy. I was playful. I laughed all day long with Laura. I finally felt back to my old self completely. Today was an awesome day.
I am so very thankful for God's grace & forgiveness. He has an amazing unconditional love for us sinners that I am in awe. He used this poor situation to bring me closer to Him. He helped me refocus on what's important. I was able to focus on showing His love to others by letting go of unhealthy feelings. Words still fail me in describing how incredibly different my attitude & perspective are now. I feel finally like I'm back to being an adult.
Will I go back to Facebook anytime soon? Who knows? I'm sure many people are betting I won't last through the weekend without posting something other than this blog. ;) I have learned so much through so many people on FB that I know I'll go back some time. But for now, it's very freeing to be away. Don't worry, diehard Laura-love fans, I'll keep taking pictures and noting all her amazing growth and fill you in later.
For now, I've got Jesus, my family, true friends...total contentment. God is so good.